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Originally Posted by JamesBrown
I believe your rebellion and lack of participation may be your rationalization of why you didn't want to do the work more than anything else. As with the reasons to do well there are many reasons to do poorly, some more noble than others but in the end you didn't to the work because you couldn't be bothered, when that happens, in the best case you are hurt by it, in most cases you as well as the people around you are hurt.
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Yes, it is my way of rationalizing my laziness and the failure of me to address that issue was just a rationalization in itself. I already knew that, but I was actively suppressing that. Hopefully, next school year, I would not have this problem and actually be intellectually stimulated to actually try. I guess I just did not put forth the effort to make school more fun during the school year. The teachers were drab and boring; I did not try to change that. Attitude is everything; bad attitude just ruins everything. I mean when summer rolled around, I was more than happy to dive right into calculus and calculus based physics. I did not have that attitude during school mostly because it was "too much effort". Warning: more rationalization coming... During first semester, I would come home around 6 and have dinner, but I would be too exhausted from football practice that I would do skimpy work on my homework. Then after football season, I was playing "catch up". Since I was in more advanced classes I could not raise my grades up; the damage had already been done. It was like this for 3 years. The habits from first semester carried onto second. I hope to change that next school year. I had already quit football, so I am not even doing the summer practices. So I can finally fully "nerd out". I had not taken the right first steps in previous years; I hope to change that this year.