May be a few of you have read my post, but it was in bad taste. Many times, during discussions during meetings, I feel like talking to a wall. I have forewarned of many issues we faced and no one ever seems to listen. All I can do is say "I told you so". I don't want to do that anymore. I want to fix the problem and not just say "oh well" after competition. Many of you have noticed my imposing and direct personality. Well, the truth is that I am like that in real life regarding things I love. I love FIRST, I cannot imagine high school without it. And again, this year, I give my warnings to my team. I give my whole life to our team; I even skipped the team dinner doing background work today, and I often have done before. I show up to every meeting early and give my all and leave the latest. Sometimes, I feel very unappreciated. What threw me off the edge was the complete lack of confidence in the team of them themselves. It really is hard working in these conditions. Keep in mind, I give countless hours of my life learning new challenging topics so that I can present to my team the finest David can give. I expect the same standards of commitment from a lot of the team members, but I just seem to be standing alone at times. I am not saying that members are not committed, but I feel very insulted by the decision that the team came to. I just walked out of the room before they even voted. I was sick of it; I already knew the decision. They chose the simplest design irrelevant to this year's game. I just can't tell if anyone is serious or not.
Why I post here is just so that I can rant; I just need to get this out there. Feel free to criticize me, but keep in mind, I pretty close to breaking down right now. So much commitment I have given to the team, and all they give me is that "we will get by" mentality.
I am very close to just stop programming for the team this year. There just is nothing complex enough for me to do. I can just let the rookies do everything. We got a great new programming mentor this year. I think they will do fine.