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Commitment scares the heck out of me. I've been the team captain for my work's Relay for Life team for 3 years now but I'll never forget how I felt when I said I would help with the team and no one else volunteered so they said I was team captain. I spent the rest of the afternoon in my office sick to my stomach and near tears. But I adjusted (eventually). I think the only reason the relationship I'm in now made it past its first year was because he lived an hour away and I only saw him on weekends. We're in year 8 now, not married and though I get flack for it from my family, I just don't care, I'm not ready.
The only reason I joined the robot team was because I told Eric, (my other) that if he was going to do it a second year we were getting a cat (he's allergic, but hey, he would have to deal). He convinced me to come to a few meetings and see if I liked it enough to join the team and forgo the cat. And of course I fell in love with it (I'll have to get my cat another way). For some reason, the time I spend with the robot team doesn't feel like a commitment, so I don't panic over it. Odd, no?
Dealing with it? Avoid it when at all possible! Well, try to take it in little steps, or just jump in (and panic when no one is looking). I guess the best thing would to be to figure out why I fear it. Maybe one day...
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