[Bomberofdoom]

I've had a project presentation I had to do about FIRST with my friends and we had soo much to talk about and soo little time to talk and even PREPARE the project before presenting it. I was ready to start the opening speech, I started talking confidently and since we didn't have alot of time I had to rush from subject to subject and I got a bit nervous about it, but if I would have the time to talk, I'm sure I would feel more confident to talk about it.

When I go to piano concerts where I play, I know I have no reason to be nervous, I LOVE a crowd, but no matter what I do, the thought of dissapointing and doing mistakes still overwhemles me and I do tons of mistakes. Nontheless, I keep playing in concerts trying to control myself.

I had projects to talk about astronmy to my class and I did it quite well without disturbances and it went smoothly, but it was talking to my classmates who I know. When I play my concert peices to my family, I don't feel any nervousness, but when it's other people, I'm nervous.

I haven't done something that requires bravery or confidence lately, so I still don't know how FIRST affected me yet, it's still an early stage, but I feel that FIRST gave me something to my personality, I just need to learn to adapt it.