Thanks everyone. With clinical depression, it's taken me a year to get to this point. I don't really care to keep lying about it anymore. Was quite the shocker to everybody I know.
There weren't really any resources, I met some people through robotics on other teams and a couple have been through it. Somehow I doubt I would've made it this far without them.
If you do have depression though, take my advice, you're not alone. Go somewhere, even adults
(and yes, I know how hard it is to talk about it)