Which Side are you On?

[Jaine Perotti]

hmm... it depends on my mood.

But right now, I would say that I am definitely in the mood to be a villain.

It probably suits my personality better - I generally go against the grain of what is expected of people, not to mention that I have quite the temper when I get upset, as some of my friends can attest to. I have a slight edge to my personality - I am not the type of person who can just walk away from a situation and brush off all the bad feelings... they tend to stick around for a while. I guess most villains are the same way. Generally, they have had some kind of a wrong done to them, and they are holding a grudge for that reason. Usually they are not necessarily bad people, but rather, they are misunderstood people who have made mistakes. When I was little, I remember that I would usually relate to the villain more than I would relate to the hero (you know, in Disney movies and such). I hated the conventional, stereotypical "happy endings" - they were all the same, and it was too predictable for me. I guess rooting for the villain has been a part of my personality because I used to feel that a "happy ending" would never be something that I would experience personally, and it would be nice to have the troubled character come out on top instead. It seems kind of selfish or mean of me to think that way, but if you think about it, it isn't selfish at all. I just feel that I relate more to the "underdog", since the villain usually does not obtain victory. I would like to see the one who never wins come out on top, because typically, I am the one who loses in the many struggles that constitute my life. Its not that I don't care about people - I care alot about many people. But when it comes to those personal struggles, I find that I am often the one taking the atypical, unconventional stance (just as villains do).

Kinda depressing almost, isn't it?

-- Jaine