Since leaving FIRST, I’ve taken a path of life that wasn’t entirely unexpected, but nevertheless is quite wonderful. For the most part I am reading plenty of books, watching plenty of TV, listening plenty of news talk radio, and driving plenty to here and there. But out of old habit I still have an itch for writing, so I thought, where else better to do it than posting on Chief Delphi? So, every now and then I will be posting random messages, most of which will come from entries and journals I’ve written in my little pocket book. You may find these writing completely unrelated to FIRST, but there might be more similarities than you might think. Perhaps these thoughts lead to a bigger picture we all share… I think so. Otherwise there is no hope understanding people at all.
The Journey of a FIRST Graduate: Questions
Every journey begins with the first step. My journey begins with questions, lots of them. A fitting first step, I think, since all knowledge begins with questions, which signify the search for truth and understanding. Most would start with questions with answers, such as “Why is the sky blue?”, “What is love?”, or “Is there a God?”, but I started with a question with no answers, or rather, a question with an answer no one told me about, or maybe they’ve been telling me all about it but I never really listened… I don’t know. It goes something like this:
How do I understand everything?
It was a question I didn’t even know existed in my mind, so you can imagine how daunting it is to face this question, never mind trying to solve the $@#$@#$@#$@# thing. You might wonder how did this question come about if I didn’t know existed? Well, it came from 3 distinct questions, questions you might be familiar with having been or still am a student yourself:
Why do I learn?
How do I learn?
What do I learn?
You can see these are 3 very important questions, but I never let them bothered me as I focused my energy in movies, comic books, and video games. They might puzzle me every once in a while when I wondered about things, but I never let that tiny obstacle obstruct my march toward the inevitable adulthood. I continued to learn what I am supposed to learn, and live a life I am supposed to live, and all was fine and dandy until one day I realized the world as I was taught to see suddenly isn’t what it was anymore, a catastrophe until this day I hold many experiences, many books, and many people responsible for. I suddenly have all kinds of questions, which go like this:
How does my mind works?
How does the world works?
How does knowledge works?
I found myself frantically flipping through all kinds of books, seeking desperately for answers, until I encounter a subject completely foreign to me, a subject which must’ve taken the combined effort of FBI and CIA to conceal from my awareness, a subject as strange as a Pan-Galactic Gargle-Blaster to the life form on an utterly insignificant little blue green planet far out in the uncharted backwaters of the unfashionable end of the western spiral arm of the Galaxy know as Earth: Philosophy.
Needless to say, there were many wonderful discoveries and surprises as I pick my way through Western Philosophy and Chinese Philosophy, many of which in and of itself are so amazing and interesting that each is worth volumes to talk about, but nevertheless will not be covered today because I’ve just barely scratched the surface of those volumes I am going to write and become a millionaire with. But regardless of those discoveries, Philosophy managed to inspire me to ask more questions than I’ve ever wanted to, such as:
How come no one ever told me:
That we are not supposed to just learn to memorize but learn to think as well?
That we are supposed to learn to wield all knowledge as the most useful tools we will ever encounter instead of trapped by them like our vision through a pair of binocular, which give us a very far yet very narrow point of view?
That what we think isn’t always what is right?
That just because people are different doesn’t mean they are wrong?
That opening to new ideas and different opinions is the only way to expand your mind?
That it is very overwhelming when you suddenly open your eyes to the massive and diverse branches of knowledge out there?
That there are very complex ideas in the world and simple right and wrong isn’t enough to understand the depth of the issues?
That we are capable of understanding the bigger picture even though it is hard?
And, How come no one ever taught me:
How to learn the right way?
How to ask the right questions?
How to look for the bigger picture?
How to maintain my innocence and fascination as I grow up?
How to learn to think?
I can go on and on, which I will, in due course, but for now, let’s just say that all these questions eventually point toward the same destination: “How do I understand everything?”, which, as you remember, is the first step of my journey: a question with no answers, or rather, a question with an answer no one told me about, or maybe they’ve been telling me all about it but I never really listened… I don’t know. I have no answer to this question, or any of the questions contained in this one, but one thing I know for sure is that, I know I am no where near the position of trying to answer these questions, which is fine, considering this is only the beginning of a life long journey, one that hopefully will lead to more answers than I will ever want.
Time will tell…
P.S. By the way, I am very eager to find out what kind of questions you are asking yourself, so feel free to share them with the rest of us!